s p i r a l l i n g

Mrs Rapallo fingered salt,
reading in it some Arabian mystery
that she would very likely not tell.
Patrick White


Theodora wrote a poem about the letters. She hadn't yet attempted to have it published, but holding it in her hands, and in her memory meant more to her than almost anything.


 the letters        every object in existence,        every sign that stands            in place           of some meaning              or other,           every beloved thing,           stares at me,        shining         and empty         as all          vocabulary          launches          into the atmosphere ...                        beautiful,            thick and rich              like liquid marble,           then crystal thin                 ... the fading             noises of cities             in the evening,            in the sunset,            and forever...                As I watch      from my imaginary   roof-top,               all the things I have   known in my life      form an ever-widening               circle    upon the horizon        and bow,      formally,     before moving           ever outwards       with great ceremony,     trailing semi-invisible      waving banners        and garlands of colour            shimmer                     without end                  upon the sea.


For Theodora, her decoration of the letters on the gravestone, had been her first poem. Often they visited her in dreams to encourage her not to give up, not to despair.